I have a son and a daughter- and in all honesty, I had always wanted boys. ONLY BOYS. I went so far as to track my ovulation in order to “increase” the odds of a baby boy. (Yes, I also referenced the Chinese conception chart). And our first born was a BOY! Success! So when we FINALLY decided 6 years later to attempt another pregnancy, I figured that I had the system down and we would be welcoming another son into the family---- a bit over confident maybe.....
Due to being a high risk pregnancy and my advanced age ( ;) ) I underwent many tests early on and we knew the gender very early on. So the very sweet nurse gave us the “good” news-“ it’s a GIRL! Now you have one of each!” SILENCE………then I stuttered, “But I have a system!!!” The poor nurse was so confused!
And then I started crying and imagining all the ways I would worry and fear for this baby girl on the way- What about when a boy breaks her heart?? What if other girls are mean to her because she doesn’t fit in?? How do I prepare her for monthly pain and moodiness?? What do I tell her when she hates how she looks?? How do I help her thru not feeling smart enough?? I looked to my husband for answers and I saw an even more terrified look! UH-OH!
Lil Sis B is now almost 3 and she is the most determined, stubborn, active, focused and hot-tempered girl I know. She runs everywhere, even if it’s just from room to room, and will not be stopped. Preschool days will be starting soon and I am afraid for her. Afraid she "won't play well with others" and afraid for the teacher that tells her it’s time to come in from recess and she refuses to be removed from the swing/slide/tricycle! I have already role played some of the inevitable phone calls in my head.
This past weekend Lil Sis B decided that she was up for an outing and tells her Daddy “I want to go to the Princess Castle”. Well her Daddy lives for moments like this, so we were all in the car and on our way to Disneyland in a matter of minutes. After a 30 minute line, we entered the new Fantasy Faire section and met Sleeping Beauty, Ariel and Cinderella. Lil Sis B was star struck! All we heard was her breathing and saying “ooooooh” and she could NOT move. So Big Bro T stepped in and guided her to each Princess and helped her ease into the “meet and greet”. Big Bro T even posed for all of the pictures with her, Daddy furiously videotaped his princess with the Disney Princesses, and I snapped pictures like a crazed paparazzo!
As I looked at Lil Sis B grinning from ear to ear and all of us grinning at her from ear to ear, I felt a little of the fear and worry slip away. Girls have it tough in this life and I have always known a daughter would break my heart because I would not be able to keep her from all the heartbreak that awaits her. But I know there are at least three people on this earth that will stand with her thru every minute of the good and the bad.
So much for my “system”!
